I now know i deserve love

I have started relationships filled with love and got out filled with wounds. I cracked, cried, my scars healed and I just made the same mistake again. This time after the tears, the regret and the haunting of all my memories, my heart has healed. Not just healed but now I believe I deserve love and not half´s.

If you want me you have to fight for it.
So this is my goodbye for all the guys that dated me with deadlines
I didn’t deserve to feel that love has an expiration date. I believed that love was a part time job, something I might lose any day. So I would fight for both of us because I knew our deadline was your choice. I don´t need to share my brain if all you give me is superficial information about you. I don´t want to feel that if I open my dark side you will give up, when I hold you with all my strength. I let us live for what others thought but our photos weren´t the truth. I let our love be easy as well as practical instead of complex and deep. Thank you to all my mistakes because now I know I deserve a fight. 
I will only commit to love full time 
I will only invest in real love. The next person will need to give me a moment. The moment someone swallows me with their eyes into a universe created by his eyes. I fall into a wave of commitment, drowning into affection. My body becomes heavy from the weight of his love, although falling I know he will hold me with his eyes. I want his eyes to tell me that I am where his love lives.

– just my notes

3 thoughts on “I now know i deserve love

      1. Yes, that’s for sure, I sometimes think that we go through a process and if we learn then the older we are the more we open for love

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